Pipe Dreams

That tastes like brilliance

It may cost valuable sleep, but my home is now stocked with HD cable...And HD-DVR....

I'm in love.

pontificate like your heart is a gnat: what does "heart like a gnat" even mean? Who says stuff like? honestly...

Rant update

A few small updates for the marginally bored:

1) Favre leaving definitely depresses me, but on some level I'm excited for Rodgers.  He has talent and besides the guy is from Cal...love the Cal.

2) Fuentes is a really legit guy. And Texas Mexican was great food.

3) I'm still in the midst of reading "The problem of God and the problem of evil" and the more i immerse myself into this exquisite piece of literature the more i wish D.Z. wasn't dead and that i could attend Claremont under his teaching....that'd of been very cool.

4) The Panic song is just insanely good.  I get that their shows are frequented by the fourteen year old teeny-boppers, but who cares? They're good and they provide a level of depth in their instrumental foundation that most bands can't even comprehend, let alone duplicate.

5) MOST EXCITING NEWS: DCFC is coming out with a new album! Finally...it has been three years i think since the last great Death Cab album.  I can only pray its reminiscent of Photo Album or We have the facts and were voting yes...or the infamous John Byrd EP.

thoughts to pontificate: What is the best theme for a bachelor pad? I lean to the minimalist modern look, but we shall see...

I've Arrived...

Psyche (retro nineties jargon)!!!

To arrive: When one has come to elite status in their chosen social or political culture.

The idea of status through symbols fascinates me.  From a religious standpoint materialism disgusts me, and sometimes overt consumerism sends a chill down my spine. However, my darker side appreciates the concept of "upper echelon" figures in every arena, and symbols of status can be great indicators of "arriving".

Do you remember when people would "limp" as a form of status?  The movement was derived from rap/R&B origins and sort of transitioned into every young adult wanting to limp. The limp, i believe, is just one form of status being shown through materialism or style.  The limp has died down, but the idea of walking a certain way still exists.  In fact, the essence of cool can be seen even in the business/political forum.  Rappers who have made it are into gaudy extravagant  displays of "arrival", but the business/political world has the same themes, except the business/political realm is far more subtle in their elitism.  So, for the enjoyment of myself (who else truly reads this?) i will list the subtle status symbols in the world I've been immersing myself in.

Shades: I think sunglasses are one the more subtle forms of "arrival".  Everyone notices the shades people wear, and in a way it's a way of showing one is trendy and cool.

Car: I noticed two of the most obvious vehicles that get nods are Audi and BMW.  Both have the power of a sports car, but the image of professionalism.  They scream "I'm important..." to anyone who may get passed by one of these beautiful modern marvels of automotive perfection.

Suit/tie: I know wearing a suit is norm, but it is the intricacies of the suit that truly define who has arrived and who is just trying to fit in.  For example, if you saw my suits you would probably think "(I'm) no insider, but (I'm) also more then a simple paper pusher".  I probably am on some level a mere paper pusher, but i love my job and I'm in a place where I'm positioned well to move up when the time comes. Anyway, while my suits are pretty nice there are people at my office who wear suits hand tailored in London...London!  I mean talk about "arriving"...buying your suits only in one place-on the other side of the world. Damn, that is cool....

The blackberry: I have no idea why, but every important person i meet has at least one blackberry. 

The walk: It's not a limp, but it totally exists.  Imagine one hand in the pants pocket, and the other hand loosely and subtly swaying freely and then add walking very straight/tall. It is ever so subtle, but when someone is walking with that "aura of cool" you can tell they are either powerful or vain as all hell, i ascribe to the latter when doing the walk...to the bus stop....i told you i hadn't arrived. haha.

There are probably more, but I'm bored of ranting to my laptop.  Keep it street...

thoughts to pontificate: Is it just me or are business cards not the coolest thing of all time? People love to mock the name tag, but the business card is the same thing.  And as ridiculous and silly as it may be, i love when i get to pass mine out.  But what do you do with them after they're received? I tend to toss mine if i don't take the person very seriously. I suspect that happens to mine a lot, but i don't mind, at least they accepted it when i offered. Oh, and another great thing about them, perfect to give when talking to a person of the opposite sex.  I'm not big on asking for the number or offering mine, but with a business card i just say "here's my card contact me sometime..." and it's great.

About that...

Mark my words in the next five years my father will be dead.  I could probably make a case for within the year, but I'm being generous. 

And this, children, is why Vicodin is a drug and is heavily misunderstood in terms of potency of causing addiction.

Kidz

Not the movie, but actual spitting puking burping gross kids.

My brother is on his way to see me and i get a phone call from an old friend i knew way back in high school (yes, i consider six years a long time).  The conversation was cordial and intriguing-to say the least.

It would seem all of my friends from yesteryear have kids, and only one of those friends is married to the child's mother.  Kids...I mean freaking kids!  I'm 22.

My boss just recently had a child and he is in his mid thirties.  Both age groups seem extremes to me, but my boss's age seems more aligned with what i would desire.  Kids are fine i guess, but to have children (all of the kids mentioned are 8-12 months old) at such a young age seems...awkward.  I look at my life right now and i don't see where a child could possibly fit in.  Hell, i can't even figure out where a relationship could be feasible.  I'm so busy just trying to graduate and prove myself in the capitol; I can't even fathom the concept of a family.  And while i'll admit the idea of coming home to a family is extremely appealing, it is only appetizing in the sense it would create this loving and caring environment where there is a strong sense of togetherness. I haven't felt like i've belonged to a family for a very very long time (probably before I moved to Oakdale-over a decade ago), but a family is not created so you can feel loved and accepted.  It is a daunting task, and one i know i am not ready for-neither emotionally, fiscally, or physically.  In time i would love to become a family man, a provider for the ones i care for, but till then the closet i will come to kids is talking to my old comrades once every two years.

thoughts to pontificate: Is the High School reunion anything more then a meeting of people trying to figure who made something of themselves and/or who threw their life away?

Who Knew?

Tomorrow is the infamous Valentines Day...and I...am alone...AND I LOVE IT!

I am drama free.  It is great. No obligations, no expectations, no having to constantly prove myself or strive to make someone happy.  Life is great.  Tomorrow night i will probably come home after work/school and just relax.  Take a deep breathe and bask in a life void of stress.

I love my job.  I am so busy and it is probably the most rewarding time in my life.  I would be highly surprised if i don't stay in Sacramento when the program ends.  Honestly, i wish i could be more eloquent or, at the very least, interesting, but i can really only summarize it all in a few words: I love it here.

In honor of this awesome occasion I present a new cool song:

Brush Your Bitter Sweet Shoulders Off

thoughts to pontificate: Does anyone ever truly arrive?  Or do we finally allow ourselves the chance to just be?

Music for the brain to jive...

This guy is incredibly good and i would not be surprised if he is signed by a major hip/hop label soon:

Yea Big & Kid Static .

And i think i will have that PS3 by Monday...hehe

Unbelievable!

The Giants won...

I miss "us"

I was on campus a few days ago when i came across a public forum.  An older gentleman was yelling at people about his religion and how those who did not repent would forever burn.  I chatted with a young man in the back who seemed to be swayed by the man's vivacious rhetoric.  The young individual handed me a cd of his band Willow Leaf.  The cd is still pretty raw, but the first song is very beautiful and certainly brought up memories of my past relationship. Oh well...c'est la vie.

Download 01_message_in_a_broken_bottle.wma

thoughts to pontificate: If people where it rained heavily could only listen to uplifting music do you think it would drastically affect the mood of the community?

Sunday

When asked who he thought would win, Scott Adams (cartoonist who draws Dilbert) replied:

"Giants, 37-21. Eli Manning has more incentive to win because he's trying to make his parents love him more they love his older brother. That's a bigger incentive than Tom Brady's desire to win yet another ring and bed yet another super model. It's a question of diminishing returns."

After watching the New York Giants manhandle my Green Bay Packers I would like nothing more than for the Patriots to destroy the Giants.